woensdag 23 december 2009
Oh my gosh, you say pedophiles DON'T stick together?
vrijdag 18 december 2009
Just a little update
donderdag 10 december 2009
bye bye vile little viamund
dinsdag 8 december 2009
Growing up, bringing up....
vrijdag 27 november 2009
Oh god yes.....
donderdag 26 november 2009
Oh what a glorious day!
woensdag 25 november 2009
Lullalies
"Beneath the cold beams of a veiled moon
A girl is hiding the night inside her room
With the key on her heart
Her world fell apart
When the locks did not keep him out
And the starts were watching every time he burned the skies"
Look into my eyes
And see the fire burning
I have been ready for this fight
My entire life
And you are always lying
Yes I was born ready
To live life not on my knees
To sneak up in front of your face
I am a wave
In a large condemning sea
I am a part of the army that is coming your way
And this time you can't hide yourself inside me
Swallow it down or spit it out
You told me once, it makes all the difference
But the words keep on coming
I am not that child you strangled with doubts
I just want to say it
Force you so you can hear
I am not your way to your redemption
I am the one
Who saw the you that you fear
Deceptive measures turned this child into an adult
I probably should thank you for what I have become
Swallow it down or spit it out
You told me once, it makes all the difference
But I really don't want to listen
I want to speak so get your dick out of my mouth
I gagged every single time I saw you
How can you say that this is what they call love
When I am sure that you heard me crying
And asked me if I liked it rough
I was the glue that kept your salted ego together
I was the one that was slowly dying
My sanity became so light as a feather
Yet you were never the tears on my cheek
You weren't the light that slowly dimmed in my eyes
It was just my innocence that was running away
Because it could not believe your pathetic lies
But the force that's called real love restored inside of me
In a sacred place where you can never stay
I hope you die and rot away
Swallow it down or spit it out
You told me once, it makes all the difference
But now I stand here, unwavering
Don't you wish you still can keep me bound
"Little girls grow up.
They might be sisters, they might become mothers,
They might become women with a mission.
Oh no, dont pull your hands away now!
You took responsibility for the so called love you gave
Take some responsibility for this monster you created.
Don't you feel proud?"
dinsdag 24 november 2009
Minor inconvenience
I remember how we used to play
How you told me it was just a game
And I waited for you to hurt me
I recall how I wanted this pain
Just to get some attention
Some one who thought I was "Special"...
You sick fuck
Now enter into my dream
And bleed slowly upon my smile
If I could make it last longer
It would be killed by your denial
Keep the screams bottled up
Just fill yourself up with me instead
Cause you're under my skin
Every day I wish you would be dead
And I hear you say
It was just a minor inconvenience
A black spot on my history
So why would I ever need to cry
It would make no sense, would make no sense
Choke those words out of me
The young and tender flesh you eat
Darkness haunting my life
Just because you planted your seed
And I hear you say
It was just a minor inconvenience
A black spot on my history
So why would I ever need to cry
It would make no sense, would make no sense
Swallow the memories
Perhaps I'm ready again
To forget
Drowning them in distant seas
Erase your face
Erase your name
Erase the moment I believed your games
But I can not get rid of these scars,
The wounds and the bruises
I am ready to come clean
And I hear you say
It was just a minor inconvenience
A black spot on my history
So why would I ever need to cry
It would make no sense, would make no sense
